I don't know what to do with anger, sometimes.
I'm not talking about temporal anger: my daughter forgot her shoes, I can't find my keys, I'm exhausted and don't feel like cooking. I'm talking about deep-seeded worrysome anger - the kind of anger that wells up when I bear witness to someone doing great and complex harm.
I listened today to Christian radio, which I often do. Today, however, the message I happened to hear was contorting the Christian faith to fit a very narrow interpretation, which of course resulted in a lifestyle of isolation, fear and self-loathing. I listened to opinion-radio and heard people misleading others, using rhetorical tricks laced with anger and bitterness to persuade listeners. I witnessed people who, even though they have no basis for their authority, assume it and dictate to others who are unsure about their power to object. I engaged in conversation with people who were convinced of certain truths - without much in the way of actual evidence or consideration of alternatives - were acting in a manner contrary to their own best interest.
And I got angry. I was not embarrassed by this anger. I didn't (at least explicitly) demonstrate it. It is an anger rooted in sadness, and unlike the anger about the keys and the dinner, I think its an anger that maybe, just maybe, I shouldn't want to let go of. Letting go of the temporal anger is probably a good thing for me and for my community. I think letting go of this other anger is really only good for me, and that's never good for anyone.
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